Been Living in a World Surrounded by so much Emptiness......

Was feeling so good to own yr things, was so nice to be brought to live in this wonderful world, it's truely amazing.... i must say, good job lord and good job my parents! u guys had given me the hope and the destiny. How can I ever gonna repay all these good stuffs, well... there are of course. All I need to do here is to show them back the appreciation by studying and constantly studying, and by that i also mean, get to college, get a laudable degree and hey, the most important part, go get a satisfying job that pays well. I meant yeah.... that's life. And, that's the law of life for me.... define the law of life of your own, i'm sure that you have yr own.

I'm not saying that I hate studying so much... well obviously all of us are gonna go thro that routine for life. It's good, u noe. But, i dunno.... mayb i'd like to have a change.... so much so that i cud change to do a different thing, and it's usually not the thing i always do.... perhaps a liking to work will make me happier? Well, look, perhaps a change of environment will help ease my agitated lifestyle.... i'm in doubt, really. I just dunno how to express all these 'cause i kinda good in hiding stuffs.... well a typical CANCER am I? It's hard to tell when I'm happy, well not to worry, just feeling empty that's all. Oh yeah, mayb it's the incessant-working-on-reports sensation that had fooled and trapped me, keeping my heart empty.

Been in serious disgusted to one of my closest family member these days, never wanted to talk to him no more. He was so annoying, like a bug to me, bugging and still bugging endlessly... mayb i need to c a psychiatrist sometime.